on being stressed out the whole time
i love to-do lists. i have... several. i'm very much a visual person, and organized in the way that i don't like depending on my own (quite bad) memory. i enter everything into my calendar, for example. i am also generally a very stressed-out person. i am aware that i create that stress for myself. partially with the aforementioned to-do lists. but the thing is: not writing them down doesn't change the fact that i need to do these things. so it's how i try to cope.
i'm a uni student, but currently on semester break. semester break for me always means: now you have time to do things. so let's make that dentist and gynecologist and bloodtest appointment. let's get all those chores and spring-cleaning done. let's finally do all these hobbies i've been missing out on. let's start working out again. let's do that project, and that one, and that one... let's read at least one whole book. let's actually cook for once. et cetera. so, bottom line: in my breaks i am more stressed than ever.
and that's what i meant with: it's my own fault. but how do i deal with it? because it's true: doctor's appointments and chores and spring-cleaning need to be done, and i do want to spend my free time on my hobbies and projects. so what to do? i don't know.
i definitely need to figure out a way to deal with my constant stress. unfortunately, that's just another item on my to-do list. but if i don't do it i know my health will be affected. stress is a killer after all. i can't keep living like something is chasing me every day.
ironically writing out this blog post is stressing me out right now, so i'll have to stop.
જ⁀✉ ᯓ➤ leave a comment