this is "i can't bear it", a tiny vent-like blog born out of frustration, loneliness and the desire to scream into my pillow in a digital sense. sometimes the tone will be wannabe-poetic, sometimes it will be PURE ANGER. i don't use this blog to write about the good things in my life, but rest assured, there are plenty. also, a trigger warning is necessary for all things mental illness. this blog also contains mature themes so if you're a minor look out. specific content warnings will precede each blog post.
i have been on this planet for 26 years. you can use she/her to refer to me. my daily battles include social anxiety, depression, some yet-undiscovered other thing that makes me feel very much un-normal (asd? bpd? who knows?), and finally (and most importantly): the horrors of the past -- specifically a so-called 'situationship' i had last year with a person who treated me like shit, broke my heart and subsequently stopped being my friend. here i call them j. my heart is still broken from that and it will stay so for a while. i am in therapy for all of the above.
oh, and i also have a website. i want to keep my website separate from all this stuff though because people who know me irl know my website. please understand that and don't talk about this blog on my website or my website's comment section / guestbook. you can use this comment section for this blog instead.
